Saturday 9: Forget You
1. Have you ever felt you needed to just forget an ex-lover? It seems the more desirable forgetting would be, the less healthy it would be to forget. Forgetting a fling or someone dated causally wouldn’t hurt anything. Forgetting someone who who impacted enough to hurt or haunt one’s memories would be forgetting part of yourself and how you came to be. Forgetting the bad stuff leaves a person open to repeating mistakes in future relationships. Forgetting the good is holds as much danger in different ways. What I do think is an important goal in moving on from an ex is coming to a point where memories are packed away and don’t pop up without provocation.
2. Spring picnics and cookouts are here! What would you want to have on your plate as you head back to the table? Good quality sausage or bratwurst with ketchup and brown mustard, potato salad, baked beans, and a huge hunk of watermelon.
3. It’s St. Patrick’s Day, March 17th! Do you celebrate? Drink Green Beer? Go out? Chris and I celebrate St. Patrick’s Day at Alex’s church. They do a corned beef dinner, sell beer in green mugs and have a Celtic folk trio preform. Last Saturday was what we affectionately dub “Beer in Church” and it was lots of fun. Today was a typical Saturday.
4. Did you remember to wear green today? I wore a green t-shirt with Happy St. Patrick’s Day across the front in tiny gold dots, but for work I be covered it in a sweater vest of work approved color and had green sleeves for the day, plus shamrock earrings.
5. What phrase or saying do you over use? I do find myself saying “it’ll be okay” or “it’ll have to be good enough” pretty darn often.
6. If you could (or could have) change(d) something about your relationship with your parents, what would it be? I would have wanted them to encourage me to *do* things especially activities which would have gotten me out with my peers. I’ve never had an easy time feeling like a part of a community and I suspect it’s in large part because outside of school, I never participated in any kind of group extracurricular activity.
7. If the NCAA Men’s or Women’s Final Four basketball tournament was played in your hometown arena or within easy driving distance from where you live, would you try to attend one of the games? I couldn’t give two shits about college basketball. I doubt I’d go even if offered free tickets.
8. No matter what’s going on in your life, what always makes you smile? Oh, there is a goodly list. I’m the smiling sort even when I’ve got troubles. Chris coming home after his work day always has me smiley and excited. Talking to my niece, Sabrina, even though it reminds me how much of her childhood I’m missing, I always smile at how smart and articulate she is and am thankful being away hasn’t killed her desire to talk to her Aunt Tina every so often.
9. We’ve asked this before: What else is on your mind? Go ahead and rant. What’s on my mind? Tonight, I’m just tired. I woke up tired this morning which has been happening to some degree nearly every day for a while now. Best case, I simply need a new CPAP machine. Having my sleep apnea treated the last couple years has been wonderful. I had no idea it was possible to wake up fully rested. I’m waiting for the plan year to turn over on my health insurance before taking any action about it and even then the deductible is scary. I worry about both quality of life and health ramifications of all this and I hate the blood brain fog and chronic headaches.